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So, we’re headed back to court in June for what should be our last appearance and the end of this year long magical mystery tour.
In addition, all is well with regard to the proposal Rob drafted, our attorney’s understanding of it, and the prosecutor’s understanding of it. Mr. Happy still won’t be moving to Jacksonville or any other special community for a while, but he will be able to resume his life and I’ll be able to resume mine.
My life, sadly, still won’t include wearing any of what’s in my closet but I’ll work on that when I’m home and, if that doesn’t work out, I know a good tailor.
And if that doesn’t work out, I know an even better consignment shop.
There are certain things I can’t worry about any more, certain things I need to let go of because they’re heavy and I’m exhausted.
A week ago I resigned from my magazine editor job. Mr. Rugby and Mr. Happy were thrilled but confused; isn’t that the less crazy job? Isn’t that the job with the “normal” people?
Yes and yes, but it’s also the job that requires an emotional investment, actual love, and patience. Mothering, almost. And I’m exhausted from mothering my real, live human being who’s under house arrest, the other one who isn’t but who’s still considering back surgery, and all the other stuff that’s not mothering but still worries and exhausts me.
Yes, editing the magazine is the less crazy job. Yes, the people are wonderful. But right now it’s better for me to do one job.
The one that goes like this:
Open laptop.
Open Trello.
Review “Copywriting” column.
See my smiling face on a couple of cards.
Open each card, assess the request, and open the brief.
Write what’s requested.
Attach it to the card.
Move the card to “Copy Review.”
Repeat as necessary.
No emotion. No mothering. At the end of the day, I close my laptop and that’s it until the next morning.
That’s all the news for now, folks. Boring, I know, but I’ll take it.
Thank you for taking this long, strange trip with me. I appreciate you and your many comments and emails. If you’d like to read parts 1-51, you can do so here.
Saw Mr. Happy at work yesterday💜. He was super happy to see me and gave me a “ brief” run down of his life, asked about the boys, gave me a huge hug and an even bigger smile. I left a half an hour later😉. You’re a good Mom, Sus. Love you bunches💜
After all you have been through, boring is good!
Glad to hear that things are finally coming together.